I'm keen to get cycling again, but currently am having a contemplative period while I wait for my bike to be fixed, and my body to repair itself.
There are questions hovering around my brain, about what, if anything, might be different post-crash.
I mean this is my first ever road traffic accident I've been involved in. So if there will be any paradigm shift in outlook, now is when it's likely to occur I guess.
Abusing the dreaded "what if" thought process, I could go wild with dramatic-license and call it a "near-death-experience", which really; it wasn't.
But if the driver is dumb enough to hit a bright yellow cyclist from behind, who's to say she couldn't have rolled forward a few more meters, over my body?
- How will it feel riding the same monstrous roundabout again?
- Will I over-react to any little driver errors I witness?
- Will I start smashing windscreens and hauling drivers out of their cars, when confronted in future with dangerous driving which threatens my safety?
- Will I still have my rider confidence and assertiveness as it was, before the crash on Monday?
- Will I now pessimistically "expect" cars to crash in to me?
- Could it affect issues of trust with strangers generally?
- How low shall my expectations sink to, for drivers with foreign registration plates?
I realise this is a really moody and pessimistic post, so I'm sorry for that.